The Moon is full today
And it’s in Scorpio!
I dared into my private blog roll and discovered ramblings of interesting read including this story, which I have kept in my treasure chest called WordPress for 8 years!
Today we air the chest and clear the air!
For we now know better,
we are more confident,
and we see clearly!
With SPIRIT EYES
The unconditional type of LOVE,
Did I really cry and pine over a heartbreak that long???
As above, so below
Ncumisa Nomna Mbusi – 07 May 2020
On the 3rd November, exactly 3 months today, I was told, “I don’t love you anymore”.
It was in the morning, I knew his mind and attention had been somewhere else for weeks, but I didn’t see it coming.
I thought to myself, “well, the honeymoon phase is waning he’s mourning that, we will be fine”.
No, we were far from being fine.
You might ask why I state that I didn’t see it coming, when things hadn’t been okay for a short while before that.
Well, the reason is simple and straight forward. It always is for all women.
I thought he will get over it, I thought I will not give him the satisfaction of leaving him because he was acting differently, because then he would walk away guilt free, move on and never look back, I would give him his ticket to freedom.
Yes we had our challenges, but I didn’t want him to leave!
He said it, and I was dumb struck.
I didn’t know what to do nor say.
The shock of this man’s guts!!!
We all know men don’t like being the bad cops hence they always play mind games until you figure it out yourself and make it official.
He was that brave, he told me, just like that, “I don’t love you anymore”.
After 3 months of begging, tears and stalking phone calls and numerous phone calls to my girlfriends, here I am, today, rocking the most daring hairstyle of my entire being, with a killer outfit, trembling and sweaty palms.
I’m supposed to be excited.
The hairstyle worked, I finally got them to notice me and ask for my phone numbers.
I needed them to notice me and ask for my phone numbers. Just so I wouldn’t have to think about him every passing moment of my time hoping and praying he calls, wondering if he will ever say “I was wrong”.Tweet
I have not one, but two dates this afternoon.
And I’m ready to break down and cry all over again, coz I remembered, 3 months ago he told me “I don’t love you anymore”.